Scenes Of A Domestic Life

in moments of dust and color
home, a dark hutch, waits
beyond blooming

full bellied life
lined with objects on
every shelf, breathing
the glint of their thing-ness

my eyes crack open
to plain significance
when morning asks for more

for the desperate wish
of breathing my own
glint
handled gently so
as one handles an orb,

I river through each
room of home
plucking here and there
the wilt
of life and togetherness

In My Town (2nd edit, expanded)

In my town
and your love-hands
around my neck, points
or tips of
those bone ships
just brushing in,
look
such elegant
and precious violence
was my voice
slipped between the seats
and you,
oh how you made it
home
before your whole body.

The sea shipped and shaped
so many blinking on and off
fluorescent lights
the digital the tangible
missing
a tactile illumination
of the loveliest sort
the presence of song
in the lacking day

no more no more more
I am shouting in every language.
I am every carnal
every icon
you are a spit roasting
late night talk show
jabber wars

Hay Field and Calendar

soon your broken off
piece will walk and talk
the scent
of that day coming
roars through
folded time

compressing swift
toughness, leaded lips
I’ll speak like cotton
and a spun wing
lifts such guilted face

you: a calendar.
my series of boxes edged
a perfect ribbon
and I: that field, a square yes.

but ever-ragged after the hay
is cut and bound, my senses
baled
and stored. Rhythmically
I grow back
toward future, little
more than splintered

stalks twine the sun
in alfalfa roping,
lay like gloss
on the open square
of that month

and whatever piece
on offer
head and hands folded
open, my vast comes
forth to soak
the scent of time.

Portrait Of The Dark In June.

The fingers called swiftly up
each little character

flecks that stand so at attention
with a train whistle’s
sigh.

Marvel then
an imagined page where
fullish moons once stood over
small bodies of lovers

breaking the embraces
of vowels in their throats,

that newly made riot
for writing letters

and the distinct waft
of violet and sea air
murmured

and crashing
on such skins as these.

Unedited, back from the evening barn

gravity in the glass
push or punch
that gulp in mouth
fascination wield your
flowered hands
just over my eyes

just touch me
in my density

grant your gravity
love leave
the parched solstice
or sweated out moon time
just a drop before
beneath calls saying

just touch me
in my density

I, your light bulb
singing the color of wheat
am esophagus
full of fields
the dusk and the horses legs

gulp bloom
your answer left secret
a crest call where I cannot
just write what you want
I say instead
gulp

just touch me in
my density.

Tuesday Observations

coffee: the love act
the clarity of the glasses on the shelf
foggy tears for a lost baby
one patch of dirty sun on the floor,
in it lays a hound
10 am voices on the radio
clatter their worries around the house
gushes of oily money politic
and deep summer
pungent garbage stink already
slinking early under the sink
2 weeks before normal bloom
peonies
in the large blue canning jar
that I love calm me with green
stems against these red walls
and red heart.

In Memorium to Mark Kidd I.

life wrapped around cages
so often this
spectacle you
a discussion of death:
your purple heart

a royal color
running together the blues
and reds of expectation
and you are dead.

heat in flourishes
danger born and broken like
rivers that make us up
to our necks leaving
only faces for kissing

we’re going
where we cannot
spend our horses

so your war dollars
fall out on the table
getting fine pinot noir
a mercenary chortle
we toast after the feast

don’t laugh too hard
you are dead
I saw your face
hiding in the mountains
in your teal pick-up truck,
purple heart swinging from
your rear-view mirror.

The Antler Never Given

Because there isn’t anything that doesn’t feel like fiction already, I am unsure how to proceed. All I have between myself and fiction is trust.

Because I love them, I don’t go visit them.

I was born on my grandfather’s birthday, also Lincoln, also Darwin.
My grandfather drinks. Heavily. In the garage, among the hounds and the old tools and cans of oil. The door is always open in any season, so he looks out into the fields and watches the weather come in. Sometimes he just drives around, drinking Natural Ice in cans, thinking behind the wheel. I was told that what he secretly thinks about is his other family, but something is crumbling in the edges of my mind. I’ll build the story out of his debts, and my splinters of memory.

My grandfather could out-drink a bear. I decided to ignore most of my debts in favor of getting on with my day, something I picked up from him.
The jaws of a bear catch the time again. There his face hung on an antler, rocking through the sleepy bar, echoing up from a glass of Bourbon. In the outside: Salted roads, salted eternal, preserving,
lasting through each season.

It was as though tomorrow night didn’t look black as a riding boot, twisted up in the trunk of a car. Me, I’m always riding around, two hounds in my palms, so when they called to tell me he died, I did what I knew best:
Tilted my snout toward the brothy scent of day to suss out a next move.
Night waiting, like boots.
Over and over in my rutted stomach I heard:

He: a grandfather. Mother’s father, little boy of all the older sisters that craned their buoyant chests in every direction, laughing or kissing.
She: a grandmother. Moth-like, chewing up her own closet until fluttering out crazily, always returning to the lamps he lit, always.


Because I love them, I seldom call.

They are the north-country, the tellers of that crumpled city, upon whose streets I fold my hands. Hounds know them, and the dead horses listen from their graves in the south fields. The life they once had is now fiction, as is the slippery vertical of lost architectures, upon whose cornices I hang tears.
They: the still-living ancestors.
They: the fiction with no pages.
They: beating and breathing, anchored to watchful fields
opening wide to welcome them, to welcome me, clutching antlers.
All my life now,
clutching antlers.

A funeral that hardly required embalming: a grandfather considering it a Polish courtesy to save the undertaker some extra work. He had started the job years prior, lighting the lamp of his policeman’s heart each morning for her.
A widow that hardly required comforting: years stacked on the bedside table like so many unread books. She had been alone anyways for so long, in a house of hounds calling him from the woods.
A granddaughter that came from the city they left behind, cedar swamp eyelids closing over something not yet gone, clutching the antler he never gave her. Black boots, tall, and so shined. Night twisting itself around the corners of her mouth, a car creeping in on the gravel driveway.

Out is the in beyond the river that keeps the city from being too ugly on one side. From there, I can perch and watch all the ancestors, dead and alive, as they disregard their debts to each other. The barn stands so alone now, with all the horses buried and the hounds interred in palms. Thinking I saw lights in the rafters, I pulled my leaden body up the hardly-there stairs to find a bear pelt, giant and mangy black, strung up wide across the beams. It reeked of old man, half drunk at noon.

A Maze On Graph Paper

Don’t with your heart
you will find me too replete
to go home, so
make new
a tilled smell
that answers some junky sky,
jagged like an oyster shell.

Don’t with your rolling smile,
or answer. I try nonchalance
but secretly study each exit
pleading for an entrance.

In a room
with penned in clatters, curses,
and billows of drunk,
this tent of quiet
over my eyes:
extol patience
beg forgiveness
finish my beer.

something has happened.